It’s the underwear section, once again.
Boxers, trunks, and briefs crave
for my attention, trapped in shiny boxes waiting
to be used and abused by the perennial
scent of male body parts: a chemistry of
cock odor and crotch sweat.
My imagined porn-star self is thinking
about you now in a room, giving you
the usual treatment, the veritable eye of
the hunter meditating on the
fuckability of your body’s language
astute for the exotic Mandingo
in me peppering the room with incantations,
four-letter words you want to hear
over and over again, as our bedsheets
salivate with elevator music
from the seventies. The dude at the cash
register said he prefers trunks, too,
looking at me like he’s ready to punch
his number into my mobile.
The slut in me wanted his number bad.
But the angels of monogamy were hovering
over me, and sanctioned me to think
on a straight path, because our future
shouldn’t be sidetracked by hot,
anonymous sideburns ready for a few moments
of licking. Soon, I am accelerating
the streets with music tapping fingers on
the steering wheel, sweating with
images of your hands at home, and fresh
memories of the dude’s hands after
following me to a basement bathroom, where
we undressed the afternoon into
a brief affair, of something eager as desperation
sealed by mutual consent. The face is
not an illusion of ejaculations, but a semiotics of now,
into immediate gratifications. There’s
nothing subjective or relative about
hunger and need, that’s why Eve summons
the bitch in her, and reaches out
for the fruit. She doesn’t have the self-control
of God, or the mind of myth-makers
obsessed in civilizing the logic of animals in our senses
with doctrines, religions, or notions of fidelity.
Michael Caylo-Baradi’s work has appeared in The Galway Review, The Common, Eclectica, Bombus Press, Eastlit, elimae, Eunoia Review, FORTH, Horn & Ivory, Ink Sweat & Tears, In the Name of the Voice, Local Nomad, MiPOesias, New Pages, Otoliths, Prick of the Spindle, and elsewhere. He is an alumnus of The Writers’ Institute at The Graduate Center (CUNY).