Shadow Work

What is a God to the doubt of themself?

A pile of ash praying at my feet

I used to believe myself monolith
Until the crumble cracked its teeth
And pressed me flush with the dirt

I have been uncertain longer than I am certain of
Digging up root rot and running into the dark with full hands
Making off with the best of my dead parts

I am not ghost,
But haunted

The best screaming my name
Over my shoulder

I am desperate to believe in a future that I cannot see
Or make
Or make believe

Pride hanging by a single thread
Of restless fight

Surrender blacked and blued
By a knuckled phantom

What is a fight to the loss of one?
A hunger for redemption

Lindsay Young is a poet from Long Island, New York. She competed at the 2018 Women of the World Poetry Slam and represented the city of New York as a member of The Nuyorican Poets Cafe’s 2018 National Poetry Slam team. Lindsay was crowned a 2018 NUPIC (National Underground Poetry Individual Competition) Co-Champion. She was a member of the 2019 Brooklyn Slam team, and was part of their poetry production that premiered in Antigua in the summer of 2019. She is the author of Salt to Taste, her debut book of poetry, which was published in the summer of 2019. She is a Winter Tangerine alumnus, a 2020 Watering Hole fellow, and her work has been published in The Fem, The Offing, and featured on Blavity and SlamFind. She currently works for nonprofit organizations as a counselor and workshop facilitator, largely servicing youth of color.

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